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From Pain to Purpose
A short tale of self-reflection at 40. I woke up three years after my mom passed, and it hit me all at once. I chose this human experience, along with my parents, before I was even born. For some reason, I was meant to have parents who struggled with cancer. That thought led me to…
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Joy Laced With Grief
I’ve been feeling down lately and I’ll get the question “why?” which honestly drives me nuts. Oh, I don’t know…. because my mom died? Remember her? I also recently had to put down my first dog and I miss them both? It’s crazy to me how quickly the world forgets that you are still grieving/mourning…
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Equanimous – The Meditator’s Mind
It’s been a minute since I’ve hopped on here to type out my thoughts, though I haven’t held back on my Instagram stories lol. I recently started a Meditation training with Kino MacGregor and have been delving deep into the work. I’ve been practicing yoga fairly consistently since 2017 with a few breaks because… life.…
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Wisdom Wednesday – Cultivating Joy
Hi! Happy ‘Wisdom Wednesday” I started to record a podcast but my brain is all over the place so I came here to write down all my thoughts so I can then read them lol. Today I want to share a short post on cultivating joy and how it’s different from feeling happiness. Happiness (&…
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Let it go, but how?
Hello my dear friends! It’s been a while since I pulled out my laptop to write a blog post. I’ve barely had the energy to brush my teeth, so the thought of writing down my thoughts felt like a daunting task. I was hanging on by a thread for the last three months, but somehow…
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Grief misunderstood and why everyone needs therapy
Hi! Well, I feel the title of this post is very clear but I shall elaborate. I’m not sure why, but when we hear the word grief we automatically assume (or at least I did) that it equates to a death. After feeling grief that wasn’t in the context of death – and also after…
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I’m not crazy, I’m grieving.
As my newborn is snoozing away in his swing, I am sitting here once again reflecting on everything that has happened in such a short time-frame. In a way, going through years of infertility and pregnancy loss has prepped me for the loss of my mom. Maybe prep isn’t the right word – can you…
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Third Trimester Part One & My Mom’s New Diagnosis
Hello, friends! I didn’t write a blog post for this episode, so instead I just spoke freely on my podcast. I briefly touch on my first disagreement with our Surrogate and then go into detail on my mom’s unfortunate diagnosis. If you have friends or family suffering from brain cancer, this episode might be triggering…
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From IVF to Surrogacy
Hi! We have made it to the year we finally get pregnant! In February of 2021 I joined a Facebook group for surrogacy matching and that is where I happened to meet my future surrogate – though I didn’t know it at the time. What’s crazy is that I don’t use Facebook. I have an…
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My Infertility Journey Continued:
Hi friends! Monster is napping so I gotta move fast before he wakes up again. Also, I forgot to mention in my previous post what my transfer protocol was. My first two were the basic FET protocol. I took estrogen 3x a day, prenatal, vitamin D3 and progesterone suppositories starting 5 days before transfer, prednisone…
Grief, Grace and Gratitude 